Sunday, February 06, 2005
To Dearest,
When I won that match on Thursday, I was simply so overjoyed. But I realised I had no one to share this joy with, unlike last time.
Whenever my brother piss me off, anger builds inside but I have no one to talk to, no one to comfort me, unlike last time.
When I'm bored, I had no one to sms or talk to, unlike last time.
When I come online everytime, you seemed to be avoiding me, ignoring my messages and going offline, unlike last time.
Whenever my handphone beeps, how I prayed that the sms came from you. But deep down inside, i knew myself, that that wouldnt be possible, unlike last time.
As I look at the card you gave me on Xmas', I would try hard to struggle to hold back my tears. My mind keeps think of the past. Unlike last time, whenever i read it, I would feel so happy. My mind doesnt think of the past, it moves to our future. But, that was last time.
Whenever someone sees the Neoprints we took in my wallet, they would exclaim loudly, "Who's that?" I would reply, "A Friend." It hurts, everytime. But I just cant bear to take it out. 28th of November there wrote. That pretty and wonderful smile on your face. But, that was last time.
So much things we have yet to do. Snow-city, Ice-skating, K-box, Basketball.. etc. Once, we even talked about Hawaii. And we have yet to bake that chocolate cake. I hope you remember these little things you've left in my heart. Simply because, I will. I'm sorry. I really am.
-Donovan
How Foolish I was.
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